Smallish Victories Right?

When losing weight I look for the small victories. Those are the ones that lead to the bigger ones at the end of the road. My motto, and I'd be surprised if I were the first one to notice this, is that lots of little wins adds up to a big one at the end. A pound here and a half pound there are significant to me these days.

After comgroup tonight Ross asked me what I was down to (Ross is really good about asking this question in non-threatening ways) in the weight department. Not having a solid answer for him I said, "Oh 240 something." Thinking that it was a lot more than where he would be on a scale. His response though shocked me when he was getting on to me about saying it in the tone that I did. He pointed out that I'm only like 20 pounds away from being in the 220's which at one point seemed totally impossible! Pretty cool. Small-ish victories.

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On a completely unrelated note, I'm applying for a Fulbright Grant. The grant is awarded to lots of people wanting to travel oversees and study. They have partnerships in lots of areas of the world and with lots of people worldwide. Which means that they want you to be very qualified in order to receive one of these grants. This, as it turns out, is a pretty reasonable assumption on their part since if you get it its like getting about $40,000! I don't care who you are that's a boatload of cash.

Reading the names and bios of past winners though makes me feel like sort of a loser. Many of them have names of schools like Stanford and Harvord after their names. And other things like 'awards' and 'real accomplishments'. Pssh! I say Pssh, but really in my heart I'm asking the question, "Holy crap, am I qualified for this? Probably not." I hate doing that to myself, but it helps me keep expectations low so if I'm not able to deliver it's not as big a disappointment.

However, thinking about this King we serve, he doesn't always like to do things in a conventional way. I was accepted to Newcastle on a whim. I'm applying for this grant at the last minute-ish, and maybe just maybe this is where the Lord has me going next year and wont stop at anything from getting me there. That's where I'm at with that, and this is the end of this.

Peace.

Frustration

I haven't blogged in quite some time. Probably because my weight loss has come to a strange stop, and I'm frustrated. It started when I tried to go onto the Zone Diet, and decided that it just wasn't for me right now, and then went back to Eating for Life. I thought, this will be an easy transition back, but with weekends away, a 24th birthday, and parents coming into town, life has been anything but normal lately, and my eating has suffered as a result.

That's where I am with that. It's been a couple of weeks since I've posted a loss on the scale, and I'm getting discouraged. It seems like once you're in the groove weight comes off so easily, but as soon as you get out of that routine for just a bit, it's a real pain in the butt to get back into it.

I'm still going though, and hopefully I'll get back to progress soon enough.